It’s funny some one asked me today what made me happy what I enjoyed. I couldn’t answer, in the last I could list a few things but now I really can’t think of anything. It’s a shame that I stopped everything I used to love and those I loved stopped seeing me. Well that’s how it goes I guess. Love yourself and stay safe, Miss Kate.

I should listen to my gut right? But that’s not what I want.. but everyone agrees with it. Why can’t I just do it ?

I am made to be broken by you.

All I want to do is play some music out loud and mess around and be stupid with someone, talking about everything and nothing all at once. The kiss them like I have never kissed anyone, just enjoy being together for hours that we wish could last forever with not judgment or regrets. To feel free but safe in their arms. But now I’m to late.

There are a million things I wish I could say to you but I can’t because you don’t want to listen. I understand you need time but I need to talk to you. Make sure you are ok. Make sure that you will be, but you continue to push me away which is the hardest thing for me but I understand.

I lied so people would stop trusting me then they would leave. They would just leave. They wouldn’t care or worry. I could finally die in peace with nobody to stop me, but now I am actually losing them. I don’t know what to do . I asked for this. I wish I could just stop all the nonsense, but that wish doesn’t seem to be able to come true. Love yourself and stay safe, Miss Kate.

The thoughts haunt me slowly coming to me and then threaten to come back. I can’t get them out of my head, like screams with a never ending headache.

one of my best friends. Amazing, Magestic, Younge and perfect to me. She just doesn’t see how beautiful she is. How much she means to me. I couldn’t wish for any more, I wish she could see her through My Eyes, then she would see how beautiful she truly is. Love yourself and stay safe, Miss Kate.  (Not romantic btw )

I watched my mates going down the corridor silently watching a few meters behind because I couldn’t catch up to them. I watched them in joy and laughter aswell as my ex happy as can be. I then realised , they didn’t need me there and without me they would be ok. They would be perfect, not down because I am sad, not awkward from my jokes about killing My self, they would smile with out me the world would still go on everyday. So why bother anymore? Love yourself and stay safe, Miss Kate.

i am really hurting I guess you don’t see how much you are hurting me saying the things you say ..